I cannot recover from the trauma of knowing that my actions have cost many pain?

Choices have consequences...good or bad.

you reap what you sow.....

In a whirlwind of emotion, I realize the truth in all of these sayings. Not only have poor choices I have made recently costed me......but like the pebble thrown into a pond and the ripples continue out......my choices have affected many other's lives. I regret pain I have brought them way more than myself. I have hurt people....and yes, I have been deeply hurt by people too.....My heart aches for over my pain and yes I grieve for their pain I have caused many. Broken, hurting, and I know people tell me to lay "it" at his feet. I don't know what that looks like. It seems like just something Christians say...."lay it at his feet" There is no comfort.

I am not the Mighty Princess Warrior I had tattooed on my wrist. I want to be. I am in a dark place right now. I know God doesn't grade sin.....sin is sin, yet I feel like some of the things I have chosen lately have taken me very far away. I have let many people down, and I am sorry. As I work through my pain, I my blogs may not be what you are looking for.